That's different

My truck got broken into, in my driveway. The thief/thieves took the removable faceplate control panel deal on my CD player, but not the whole deck. So that sucks. Hopefully I can buy that from JVC without having to buy a new deck.

They didn't take anything else, that I can see. But they definitely went through my truck looking for things of value. It's kind of funny, because I have about $300 worth of tools in my truck, and not one of them was missing. I am pretty sure the thief was an idiot. Oh well. It's just money, right? *flops arms* I am kind of really mad. But oh well.

I am going to Dare 2 Share this weekend. I am pretty excited about this. Actually, I am very excited about it.

Finals next week. Spring break next one. Spring quarter begins the next quarter. Then ten weeks and I am a graduate of highschool! YES!

There are things I want to move on from in this life, and yet part of me is fighting to its death to not move on. Why am I wasting my time with this kind of thing? But is is really a waste of time? Is all the bouncing around worth it?

That was really vague. If anyone knows anything about my life, you will know what I am talking about. But I haven't really talked to a whole lot of people about it.

I found a new artist I really like, his name is Jonathan Coulton, he is hilarious. But his music is amazing.

It's funny. I am kind of just pouring thoughts out randomly. But as I have gotten older, I have gotten more and more conservative. In the way I act around people, especially dealing with girls. I pretty much do not have physical touch with girls other than a side hug. A few years back, I was all about the big bear hugs. Hmm. I was retarded then.

I used to hate hymns. Now, I have come to greatly dislike a lot of non-hymn "worship" music. So much truth is in the hymns. So much Biblical meat. In worship songs today, it is all about how we feel. And yes, we are humans, we have feelings, but really, worship is not about how God makes us feel (like being wrapped up in a warm electric heated blanket!) worship is not about showing how good of a singer/musician I am (hence the 20 minute guitar solos I always have in worship sets). Don't get me wrong, I love to hear good music in worship sets, but, it is not a concert, it is a worship service (and a worship God service, not a worship the guitarist service). Hymns are so honest. They are so deep. They cause me to sit down and think "God has been faithful" "Christ is my solid rock" And all of these things cause me to thank Him for what He has done. This is worship. Worship is not getting an emotional high, I have had more amazing times of worship where I am just sitting there pondering the words being sung in a hymn, than I have in a room filled with thousands of teenagers singing "All I want is you! All I want is you" Repeat about infinity times.

As a musician, I must be careful, because it is not the music that should be driving the emotions of the people (as I believe happens so often in large conferences with major artists involved), I believe that if the Lord chooses to move, then He will move, regardless of how "powerful" the music is.

Anyways, back to the hymns, don't get me wrong, I love some of the newer P&W music, but I also think there is a lot of fluff that absolutely should not be played in a worship setting, but is being played.

I think worship music needs to speak truth, absolute Biblical truth. I think worship music needs to be simple, so that the emotions are driven by God, not music. I think worship music MUST ascribe greatness and thanks to God, if it is doing neither, then it does not belong in a congregational worship setting.

Boy. I could write a book on this subject. Maybe one day I will. Or maybe not.

Go in peace to love and to serve
Let your ears ring long with what you’ve heard
And may the bread on your tongue
Leave a trail of crumbs
To lead the hungry back to the place that you are from

Voy a explotar.

It's funny, the way the Lord humbles me when I put my hope in things other than Him. And yet, I realize, it is not Him humbling me, it is myself...humbling me. On my own, I cannot make it. It's like me trying to push my truck to work or school rather than allow the engine to move the truck.

I find myself pushing my truck called life. And not using Christ, my engine, as He was intended to do.

Back to my main point. I put my hope in things that I should not hope in. I hope more for things of this world than I hope for the Kingdom to come. I so want to let go of things, yet my flesh fights to death against it. I look forward to being away. I don't need to think about whatever. Sometimes being a teenager is retarded.

Help My Unbelief.

I would but can’t repent,
Though I endeavor oft;
This stony heart can ne’er relent
Till Jesus makes it soft.
Till Jesus make it soft.

I would but cannot love,
Though wooed by love divine;
No arguments have power to move
A soul as base as mine.
A soul so base as mine.

I would but cannot rest,
In God’s most holy will;
I know what He appoints is best,
And murmur at it still.
I murmur at it still.

Help my unbelief. Help my unbelief.
Help my unbelief.
My help must come from Thee.

Hurray for Blogger!

Oh yes. I made one, thanks for the encouragement to, Mike, also, thanks for distracting me from my homework. *grin*

I really don't have a whole lot to rant about. Actually, I pretty much have nothing to rant about. So, this is kind of a lame first post. I know! Maybe if I quote a Nacho Libre song people will like me!

If you notice my biceps, with the eyes of a dove
With the breath of a lion, I will sing you my song

My love is like the nectar, from a fruit which is forbidden
And in my heart is hidden, all the muscles of my love

When you per chance to see my haunches like a stallion they are tight
With a breath of a chicken, dark intruders take their flight.

My love it will protect you like a vest of bullet proofness.
In the wind I am a warrior, in your arms I am a child.

Future topics of talk:
-Girls
-Food
-Hymns
-Truth
-Learning/worship/teaching styles

Paschal Lamb

Riches, honor, strength and blessing!

Thou art worthy to receive!

Loudest praise, without ceasing,

Meet it is for saints to give!

All the bright angelic spirits

Bring their sweetest, noblest lays

Help to sing their Savior's merits

Help to chant the Savior's praise!